Saving

I been at peace man I been in hell

Following the street signs all in my head

Satisfying all my needs is it all about sex

Just told her to leave get the fuck out my bed

Now I’m staring at the ceiling covered in sweat

Drowning in my feelings full of regret

Lookin for some freedom and some control

I just lost a Queen I swear everyone knows

I been speeding down the left

The wrong side of the road

All this got me outta breath

I think it’s time that I blow

Say she don’t want a relationship and she don’t want no kids

But that body so fire man like damn it is what it is

I’m against all of my morals and stressing bout’ my beliefs

Ain’t been to church in a year like I’d rather be in the streets

I no longer know what’s good for me

Looking around like how could it be

I need saving, saving

Saving from myself

I been waiting, wake me

When you find some help, help

I been down on resources of course

Trapped as a prisoner of my own thoughts

I be running from the flood been numb to the pain

Smoking all these drugs I will never love again

Growing out my beard I’m about to go grey

Pictures off the wall even thrown away frames

I don’t wanna see a thing I don’t wanna fall again

Happy on the surface but it’s all for pretend

Daddy called me out the blue

And it really had me confused

Either wanted to remove the big

Elephant in the room

Was a month before the stroke

You woulda thought that he knew

Don’t die on me motherfucker before I put out these tunes

Before I prove you were wrong when

You said to me that I wouldn’t be A list

Wanna take all my successes

And flaunt it all in your faces

You’ve never told me you love me

If you want money then take it

I need saving, saving

Saving from myself

I been waiting, wake me

When you find some help, help

Saving