Pleasure and Pain

As soon as I get I home I pack a bowl of weed And I get in the zone I pick a tone Play a melody But this much weed It's not good for me Every night I lay awake And watch TV until the sunrise Am I alive? I feel dead Looks like, once again I'm stuck in my head Take the bus Eat my lunch Keep my eyes shut so tight Pretend all god damn night I can't explain why I feel this way Must be chemicals in my brain Take my pills and pray they go away I wish that I could feel Anything at all Could be pleasure Or pain In the morning my alarm goes off I turn it off And stay in bed No need to fret I have another set Cause when I'm waking up I don't give a fuck I go back to sleep and dream that I am living in another place Another life So far away Fuck I have to wake Live another day I get dressed Try my best Clench my jaw shut so tight Pretend that I'm alright I wish that I didn't feel this way High anxiety and migraines Take my pills and pray they go away I wish that I could feel Anything at all Could be pleasure Or pain