When You're Me

Having fun makes me feel guilty Having fun makes me feel sad Doing this means nothing to me Won't stop me from feeling this bad Oh, my healthy way of coping Is for someone else, not me I've tried to learn that hoping Is enough to set me free I write my thoughts, It's not enough Oh, my body doesn't know That I'm ready So please help me Not self destruct And open up It's easy to be reckless when you're free It's easy to be reckless when you're me Such a fool trying to be me He's somewhere, he'll find his way back He's dancing, he's never felt this free! He's lying, he's about to crack You can't really call it coping When your insides don't agree It's difficult to patch it up It's hard to find the key! He'll write his will as if he wasn't Gone without a trace Could you find him? Please just help him Not self destruct And open up It's easy to be reckless when you're free It's easy to be reckless when you're me It's not fair that I feel so lonely When everything seems to be near I've seen him go ever so slowly What happens when I'm just left here To self-destruct? I won't open up! It's easy to be reckless when you're free It's easy to be reckless when you're me