How long can I keep this up? Man, it's not on purpose

I know I still struggle with emotion, even my mama notice

Man, she ain't never seen me nervous, only seen me workin'

Once I started smilin', stopped hurtin'

So far from perfect, I even got cracks at my surface

Far from worthless, determinin' what my worth is

Keep tellin' myself souls aren't things to be purchased

Dodgin' the serpents, you know world be tryin' me too

You ain't alone, shorty girl, I get anxiety too

You sound like red line back when I was like 17

At 22, man, I done things you ain't never seen

So now, man, I'm focused on that new flattery

Tryna get my mom a compound, like, thanks for havin' me

My dad at 23 was a couple years from a family

At 23, man, I'm just tryna triple my salary

Gettin' to the point where my parents becomin' human

And younger me lookin' foolish

You gotta work it out, man

You can't just put it in the music, bitch, you a Unk now

Gotta walk it out, can't just talk the talk, man, you gotta prove it

You can't be havin' these girls out here lookin' stupid

Keep it one hunnid and let 'em know what the truth is

I mean, you can't have 'em lookin' clueless

But to be quite honest, you shoulda knew this, but, damn

I guess you live and U learn

I guess you live and U learn

I felt that shit in my soul, ****, yeah

I guess you live and U learn

I fell in love with a girl that I wasn't ready for

For so long I was thinkin', how selfish of me

I remember I couldn't, couldn't grow alone

For so long I was thinkin', how helpless of me

For years I've been tryna do it by myself

Started growin' when I realized I wasn't weak to be helped

Stressed out, losin' weight, punch another hole in the belt

Only Lord knows how I found a way to keep my health

Only Lord knows how I found a way to keep myself

It's funny 'cause I hate drama

But I was startin' more problems than I was solvin'

I was hidin' things, beefin' with my mama

Hurt some women, Tatiana's, some Key's, some Tatiana's

Downin' liquor like it's water, till it taste like water

Puttin' 'gnac in Tropicana, that don't mix

But then again neither do me and violence

But yet here I am down for slidin' with bro and them

And I know that they down for ridin'

Patrol ridin' right past

Don't pull us over, there's guns in this car, ****

I shoulda stayed in Glenwood with my ****

Why I'm in the city involved with ****?

Why I come home and play football with ****?

Like I wasn't just with **** who throw bullets

Tun said don't reach for it if you don't pull it

Coulda been livin' different, well, instead we livin' well

But, hey, man, you live and U learn, yeah

Guess you live and U learn

Guess you live and U learn

Guess you live and U learn

Guess you live and U learn