War Going On

Trying to fight my way out my head

In my head’s where they led an army against a better me

I been workin’ every day almost dead

Fed up with my head in my hands

Y'all, I’ll never leave

I complain 'bout the stress, got this pain in my chest

I’m afraid what’s next will be the death of me

I’m losin’, but still, I’m not movin’

It’s time to bring the troops in

Can’t complain to the missus

Why we ain’t gettin' business?

It don’t pay when you winless

It’s hard to play your position, 'cause It can change at the scrimmage

It’s on display, the ones that play this awful game aren't the fittest

I contemplate my existence

Over a drank or two wishing that I was a pay-per-view darlin’

Star making bank from my vision like Wanda’s painful decision

Kill what I love and avenge it, but this ain’t cinema is it?

This is dilemma in real-time, not one dangerous mission

The shark tank of statistics, like jaws

Life’s stark and I can’t pay mark a visit

I stay parked, they raise all bills taxes, and tickets

They rape hard, escape charge

Still break backs of the witness and attack us for listening and filming

Trap us and kill us and they don’t ask for forgiveness

Rather have Chicago Shaw shanked up and packed into prisons

Tell me why do you hate all of us if that’s what we’ve given?

I’m losin’ this battle, don’t think I’m actually living

Trying to fight my way out my head

In my head’s where they led an army against a better me

I been workin’ every day almost dead

Fed up with my head in my hands

Y'all, I’ll never leave

I complain 'bout the stress, got this pain in my chest

I’m afraid what’s next will be the death of me

I’m losin’, but still, I’m not movin’

It’s time to bring the troops in

I’m tryna fit my whole life into 5 binders

Misery is like the anthem to the side-liners

Talk is so cheap, you can penny-pinch and hold commas

Gotta a lot to say but not to waste on a lone island

Talking bout that downfall, talking bout that emo

Talking bout that train nod, where the hell did we go?

Tell me where you coming from and I can show you three more Everybody’s battling, they tryna make those free throws

All in all, I’ve been digging

Enduring through all buffetings of life

Tryna beat this addiction of feeling emptier inside

Opportunity’s window is like a whisper in the night

I just hope that I’m listening, too much noise in my mind

Ask if I’m making a difference, I don’t know

Am I the biggest threat standing against me? Maybe so

Self-doubt is holding me hostage in the scope

There's a war going on inside me

Here we go