Through poverty and Pain I never met my pops

Except for once at that supermarket by grandmas house

He approached us, acted all surprised

Like bitch we ain’t even know if you were still alive

I promise I’m not the same man that I once was

It’s been 6 months since I even touched drugs

Mom called him out on his shit, she see the news damn

Had the nerve to ask if she got a new manbut fuck it

He looked at me said he love me

I ain’t know who he was so I look scared when he asked could he hug me

My mom said its my choice and I’m like hell nah

Im not lettin’ no stranger come round give me a hug

I was only 6 but I knew he was full of shit

Mom seemed uncomfy her heart was makin’ her sick

This situation we in

Was prolly because of him

I asked her if we could go

I never seen her so quick

Through poverty and pain the sun is shinin’ now

Through poverty and pain I’m gonna make you proud

Through poverty and pain swear we gon make it out

I got prollems outside of this rap shit now run it

I got prollems outside of this rap shit

I got prollems outside of this rap shit now run it

I got prollems outside of this rap shit

I got prollems outside of this rap shit now run it

Through poverty and pain my moms a bit abusive

Beats me cause I caused the prollems she goin through

If it weren’t for me she woulda went to college

If it weren’t for me she woulda made it through

Theres a person in her place that I don’t recognize

You used to be my hero now we’re separated

We don’t talk much cause you ain’t never talk much

I tried everything forgivin’ all the shit you did

This ain’t a fuckin’ rap song its my fuckin’ life

Tried to end it all but I took away the knife

And the pills……and the alcohol in your stomach

Couldn’t watch you wither away but now I’m like fuck it

If you were to hit me up id prolly still let you in

My mom more like a distant but ever present friend

I pray to God this ain’t where our story ends

I love you but I hate the shit you did

Through poverty and pain the sun is shinin’ now

Through poverty and pain I’m gonna make you proud

Through poverty and pain swear we gon make it out

I got prollems outside of this rap shit now run it

I got prollems outside of this rap shit

I got prollems outside of this rap shit now run it

I got prollems outside of this rap shit

I got prollems outside of this rap shit now run it

Through poverty and pain I’ve always hated me

This person that I see today cant feel a thing

Numbin’ all of my prollems with alcohol

If I started takin pills Id look like mom

I sit alone and manifest

A lifetime where I’m not depressed

And everything feels good

And everything goes fine

I wish it wasn’t all inside my mind

Maybe if I end it the pain will all stop hurtin’

Ive heard its rest in peace I just wanted to make certain

The weight on my chest is heavy I needed like two belts

This is my farewell fore I finally close the curtain

Through poverty and pain the sun is shinin’ now

Through poverty and pain I’m gonna make you proud

Through poverty and pain swear we gon make it out

I got prollems outside of this rap shit now run it

I got prollems outside of this rap shit

I got prollems outside of this rap shit now run it

I got prollems outside of this rap shit

I got prollems outside of this rap shit now run it