Get to Choose

Since I was prepubescent, my life was bleak and hectic Indeed, neglected I never learned how to be connected Sometimes I wish I became a crooked police detective So I could reach into my brain and just delete the records Treated less than by my dad, at least he feed and dressed him My measly essence spent every week just cleaning messes "Hey dad, maybe later we could-", "Shut up, eat your breakfast" He said he loved me once, guess there's no need to readdress it Egregious lessons taught me that I'm a nuisance Don't know where I'd be if music never had an influence Hearing songs that were rooted in the lack of inclusion 'Cause back as a student, that's what I stewed in I guess that was the blueprint to make me this way And put all this hate on display Instead of wasting away cradle to grave Or found in my bath tub filleted with a blade I just pray that fortune really do favor the brave But I like me now, this is new Wish I would stick around But I don't get to choose I like me now, this is new Wish I would stick around But I don't get to, get to Choose Choose Choose Choose When I see that audience, I'm not even cognizant I think 'bout what I fought against and it raises body temp Like my flawed attempt to toggle my father's thoughtfulness Impossible like toddlers tryna topple an obelisk And obviously all these atrocities just accumulate Said I was shit, and now I'm just tryna prove I ain't So we got a problem if you don't think that I'm truly great I want all the static like ghosts tryna communicate They sleepin' on me like they bedridden These the best writtens Y'all needed a spark, I'm the electrician I'm seeing red like I'm set trippin' If you can't take the heat, stay up out the chef's kitchen My neck's itching my foot's tapping 'Cause they just look past us And acting okay with that shit really took practice I wanna tap ya shoulder just so that ya look backwards And hit that pretty jaw with a hook, leave a good fracture I wonder would natural, causes be better? Then callin' a reunion just so I can share all these letters Just to set this shit on fire so we all together 'Cause every time I close my eyes, it is all I remember But I like me now, this is new Wish I would stick around But I don't get to choose I like me now, this is new Wish I would stick around But I don't get to, get to Choose Choose Choose Choose Choose Choose Choose Choose