Self Sabotage

I think it's time that I stop playing victim Admit my faults and tell my friends that I miss them I've been neglecting the things that I love, it's self sabotage And I've been stuck in this room going crazy Writing the same song like everyday About feeling stressed and overwhelmed, do it to myself, oh I'm sorry I wanna be better than how I've been But I've just been stressing and wearing thin The futures been taking me down again I love you I wanna make sure everybody knows Even though I forget to check my phone I know that I can't make it on my own I'm scared of the future And I'm terrified I'm a loser But I'll be alright if I just take time If I just wait a while I don't know what's coming But I'm scared I might not like it So I fight myself to fight it, to fight it I think it's time I respond to my texts Figure out life and what I'm doing next I've been afraid to be honest, afraid that I might miss I think it's time that I stop playing victim Write a song that I like Maybe if I get some sleep then I'll be alright I'm scared of the future And I'm terrified I'm a loser But I'll be alright if I just take time, if I just wait a while I don't know what's coming But I'm scared I might not like it So I fight myself to fight it, to fight it I'm trying To do better than I've been Even though it's be a long long time since I've been doing alright