I've been going out almost every night

At least I'm trying

Trying to get better

And I'm staying out later every time

Trying to feel connected

Trying to feel alive

I've been spending time with people that I like

Trying to stay focused on trying to get by

But I'm still spending time

Overthinking things

All the progress that I make

Just doesn't seem to take

I'm in a loop of my bad habits

I keep repeating all the patterns

(I'm caught in a perpetual dream state of

I would've held you if you were shaking

I would've held you if your bones were aching

I would've comforted you

I would've comforted you

I've cried everyday this week

I've decided that sensitivity is my biggest strength

Bad memory

I hope it will make your memory last

Maybe this too will burn eternal

Out of touch, out of place, running out of time to waste

It's like I lost a part of myself that I

I can't get back, I can't get back

When did I get like this?

When did I end up like this?

I made myself sick swallowing yellow paint by the bucket

Feel like a ghost in your life)

I'm in a loop of my bad habits

I keep repeating all the patterns

I'm in a loop of my bad habits

I keep repeating all the patterns

I'm in a loop of my bad habits

I keep repeating all the patterns