Sorry Not Sober

This time, I'm in control

Next time, I bet I won't be

This time, I'm on my own

Next time, I bet I won't be

Therapy's helpin' a bit, talkin' to God is a given

Losin' my family time for the sake of my family, damn it, it's sickenin'

Holiday season, it should be a breeze for me, it's becomin' too difficult

Would rather be spendin' this time in the living room is the point that I'm gettin' to

I ain't really complainin' about it and really the studio part is a given too

(Keepin' my feelings at ten and two)

Right in front of me, right when I get a groove

(Like I'm ADHD in it lately)

It's startin' to feel like a piece of me kinda broke

I'm not one of them rappers that say anything on a record to say that I got it, though

Mama told me I should stay for some dinner and I had to tell her, "I gotta go"

Moments I'm missin', I know it's just dinner, but after so many, it take a toll

I know mama not judgin' me 'cause I'm her baby boy, but it's still an adjustment

In the midst of me finally makin' it, lot of people I fell out of touch with

And my shorty, she can't even look at me, she think this is as good as it's gonna be

Tellin' me I don't love her the way that I did before I came into my luxury

How the fuck you gon' tell me I'm startin' to change when everything happenin' good for me?

Startin' problems you know that you shouldn't be (Shouldn't be)

She's not worried about me

She's just afraid of change

Are you scared if I make it, I'll forget about you and all the moments I didn't have a dime?

Moments you sent me a couple of dollars and all I could give you was all of my time

(You'll be mad if I tell you that you out of line)

Workin' my life for the moment, I get it and now you don't know if you'll be on my side

And I gotta tell everyone that I'm fine

Give 'em a hug, send 'em a smile, I say that it's great, I know that I'm lyin'

I handle with grace, I'm copin' with wine

Why I feel out of place and I'm not even tryin'?

This time, I'm in control

Next time, I bet I won't be

This time, I'm on my own

Next time, I bet I won't be