Disguise

Why does it feel like I'm alive?

Could I be more dead inside?

Left to suffer, I can't run and I can't hide

Out of sight but not out of mind

Agonizing but I feel fine

Swallow the pain and bury it deep in my disguise

When I look into the mirror, I don't know who I see

Is that stranger staring through a cloudy shadow really me?

All alone inside a crowded room that's stuck inside my mind

Every mask has burned itself into my skin and now I'm blind

I've become so blurry

I don't know who I once was

So why does it feel like I'm alive?

Could I be more dead inside?

Left to suffer, I can't run and I can't hide

Out of sight but not out of mind

Agonizing but I feel fine

Swallow the pain and bury it deep in my disguise

While the beauty is the face I show, the beast is who's inside

Can't put out the fire at both ends

I'm drowning in the tide

Wearing out my soulless heart

I try to smile it all away

Knowing I cannot change who I used to cover everyday

I've become so blurry

I don't know who I once was

So why does it feel like I'm alive?

Could I be more dead inside?

Left to suffer, I can't run and I can't hide

Out of sight but not out of mind

Agonizing but I feel fine

Swallow the pain and bury it deep in my disguise

Why does it feel like I'm alive?

Could I be more dead inside?

Does it feel like

Does it feel like I'm alive?

Why does it feel like I'm alive?

Could I be more dead inside?

Left to suffer, I can't run and I can't hide

Out of sight but not out of mind

Agonizing but I feel fine

Swallow the pain and bury it deep in my disguise

How much longer can I hide from real me?

How much longer play pretend so easily?

My soul is withered like a dead flower

Life's not bittersweet, it's sour

My facade begins to crumble

This ain't who I am

My soul is withered like a dead flower

Life's not bittersweet, it's sour

My facade begins to crumble

This ain't who I am

Not who I am