Now you can be sad, or numb

That's the option I've been given

Between the two, I think I'd rather just be done with living

Now I'm lying to the doctor just to stay off of prescriptions

I'd rather die whole than to live with something missing

Besides, they can't prescribe the things I really need

Love and some good friends, rolling up some weed

She saying that my anger always gets the best of me

"You're just covering the symptoms, you're not curing the disease"

"Nah, I think you're bipolar, you need to go to therapy"

"It's not that I don't love you, it's just that you're kind of scaring me"

How it feels to know the ones I love are scared of me

Like they can't take me anywhere, I'm always so embarrassing

Today, my shattered life is in shambles

Try to move on but it seems I'm at a standstill

And so I spend most of my time, all by myself

So that when I self-harm at least I hurt nobody else, yeah

Now I'm so far gone

I'm not sure why I'm holding on

Don't you tell me it's okay

No, nothing's ever been so wrong

'Cause I hate living in my skin

Tried so hard, I don't fit in

Maybe one day I'll come home

And you can waste my time again

Yeah, what you know about emotions? They control you

What you know about it when they say they miss the old you?

The suicidal one who figured out some things instead

Now they say they liked you better when you wished that you were dead

Well I guess, now you're getting your request

Here it is, 2020 almost killed me, '21 could do the trick

What you know about only getting through the night because

If you can wait another year you'll get to join the 27 club?

A lot of things changed, new whip, new bracket

Put another friend in a baby-blue casket

Another month spent crying in my basement

Ask me where my Glock is, ask me how my day went

How do I explain my life is like an empty frame?

Like a stencil that's still waiting to be drawn onto the page

Saying everything is fine, yeah, I'll be okay

Well, I dream of my own suicide every fucking day

Now I'm so far gone

I'm not sure why I'm holding on

Don't you tell me it's okay

No, nothing's ever been so wrong

'Cause I hate living in my skin

Tried so hard, I don't fit in

Maybe one day I'll come home

And you can waste my time again

'Cause all I do now is overthink

Throw me in now, then watch me sink

Always anxious, I can't breathe

I just want to get some sleep

(Get some sleep)

I’m in pain

All I know eternal disdain

(Why can't I sleep?)

Trying to improve enhancing my mood

But I know pretty soon it’s back to my ways

(Get some sleep)

Back to my roots and back to my vices

Starting anew: my mental health crisis

(Why can't I sleep?)

I’m no prize see through my disguises

Jakovite been radicalized it’s time it’s