The last 365's really messing with my mind

Few highs, few lows, few lows and few highs

Never-ending cycle, can I get a hold of it?

Something new happens and I lose all control of it

I'm trying to let go of it, remain optimistic

Recite in October but my mind's still conflicted

I'm having trouble putting my faith in religion

When people's lives are taken when they just started living

Hard to stay focused

Now when my boy lost his mom with less than a year's notice

So in the same decade he lost his father and his mother

He's in my thoughts and so is his younger brother

Trying to move forward

Can't pick a direction

Everything that's happened has altered my perspective

I hit the restart button, make a record for the man in the mirror

These are Matthew's reflections

Fourth chapters in a story of Matt

I needed a fresh start, I needed a format

It's too personal when I record tracks

It wasn't written for you, it was written for Matt

It's not a concept, it's my life

These are all the things I think about at night

Tonight, let me vent, I'll speak on a track

Wasn't written for you, it was written for Matt

Boy lost his mom, it had me thinking a lot

About my life, should I start rethinking the plot?

Because I've always been about tomorrow and not today

Which explains every one of the decisions I made

But what if I die young?

Tomorrow never comes

Would my work be a waste? Tough thought to face

Why work for the future if the future's never there?

But if you choose not to care, it leaves you unprepared it the crossroads

Should I live for the moment?

Piss away my money, lose focus and I know that so many people have a dream like I do

How come they get to have their cake and eat too?

How come they go out and not just sit in this room

And make tunes about how I am so damn consumed

By this life that I chose? Don't know what to say

Perhaps another record might help me find a way

Fourth chapters in a story of Matt

I needed a fresh start, I needed a format

It's too personal when I record tracks

It wasn't written for you, it was written for Matt

It's not a concept, it's my life

These are all the things I think about at night

Tonight, let me vent, I'll speak on a track

Wasn't written for you, it was written for Matt

Fourth chapters in a story of Matt

I needed a fresh start, I needed a format

It's too personal when I record tracks

It wasn't written for you, it was written for Matt

It's not a concept, it's my life

These are all the things I think about at night

Tonight, let me vent, I'll speak on a track

Wasn't written for you, it was written for Matt

My sensei told me back in the day

That I'm responsible for every loss that I take

I really took those words to heart

Because when things went wrong, I figured that it could only be my fault

And now I'm here without a light in the dark

So I know I have to write this smart

So if tomorrow never comes, at least I said what I had to

And I present the fourth chapter of Matthew

So if tomorrow never comes, at least I said what I had to

And I present the fourth chapter of Matthew