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So many things I can’t speak about
我的心中有許多不可告人之事
And they don’t make me proud
我並不引以為傲
Another bad choice that I could've avoided
又一次本可避免的失足
But no one taught me how
可是沒人教我如何預判
Now I’m on the edge, knees shaking
雙膝顫抖著於懸崖邊挪步
But keep on going don’t turn around, love
親愛的，請離我遠去不要回頭
The look of worry is the last thing I need
請收起你擔憂的眼神
Cause it makes me nothing
因為它只會讓我越發懦弱
I have quietly died
我已悄然逝去
When my hands betrayed my head
當雙手再次背叛大腦
When my heart thought it was smart to fall for him again
當內心再次為他沈淪
I have shamelessly lied
我不顧顏面撒謊
No one’s name should I blame
深知無人可以怪罪
He brought knife to my eyes and I said “shape me with it”
是我在他亮出刀刃時迎面說：“請重塑我。”
Same old excuse he’s been hidden in
慣用的借口是他的藏匿之處
Listen I've tried and tried to give a hint
千百遍我偷偷呼救
I always show up like a warrior but there’s a coward in me
堅強的面具下靈魂不停打顫
That still hope he could win
殘留著一絲任他主宰的念想
I’m jumping to the end of the story
故事的結局早已書寫
But keep on reading don’t skip a page, love
可親愛的，請不要草草翻篇
I still need courage to reveal what’s under bandage
當下的我還在積蓄面對疤痕的勇氣
Please don’t push too hard
請伴我慢慢前行
I have quietly died
我已悄然逝去
When my hands betrayed my head
當雙手再次背叛大腦
When my heart thought it was smart to fall for him again
當內心再次為他沈淪
I have shamelessly lied
我不顧顏面撒謊
No one’s name should I blame
深知無人可以怪罪
He brought knife to my eyes and I said “shape me with it”
是我在他亮出刀刃時迎面說：“請重塑我。”
He’s the pain, he’s the fear
他是我傷痛畏懼的根源
He’s the pill, he’s my dear
他是我療愈慰籍的偏方
He’s my dearest
我愛得如此深切
So many things I can’t speak about
我的心中有許多不可告人之事
I am deadly alive
我空有一副軀殼
Got his smile, got his eyes
填上他的微笑，畫上他的眼睛
Got his mouth to cheat my mind and hush myself goodnight
搬來他的話語搪塞心聲，催眠入睡
I am so mesmerized
我深陷其中
I've become the one I hate
被自己小看
Scared to act, weak as flake, but he loves me
唯唯諾諾，畏畏縮縮，可他愛這樣的我
He loves me this way
他愛這樣弱小的我
