I thought it was normal to watch your parents fight
It taught me dysfunction was just part of life
That love's just a word that we use to excuse our mistakes
Now I can't tell if I'm afraid or just jaded
I guess I'm just scared to end up the way they did
How do I unlearn the ways I deal with pain when that was all they taught me?
To everyone I've loved who's let me down
Let this letter hold what I can't say out loud
What do I owe you for who I became?
Should I say "thank you" or curse your name?
Do I give you credit or all of the blame?
'Cause growth and pain always feel the same
Feel the same
Feel the same
I try to avoid it when I meet somebody new
I fall for the same shit that I did with you
'Cause there's comfort in chaos and that's why I kept you around, uh-huh
It's insane to me that this could be the medicine and the disease
A cigarette that's killin' me, yet I still wanna breathe in
I keep tryin' to wash off the smell, but it's stuck on my skin
What do I owe you for who I became?
Should I say "thank you" or curse your name?
Do I give you credit or all of the blame?
'Cause growth and pain always feel the same
I wanted to fix this, I thought we could change
But when will I learn that's a damn mistake?
And I'll keep on givin' 'til my body breaks
'Cause growth and pain always feel the same
Feel the same, feel the same, feel the same, oh
I know it's not your fault
But I don't know who to blame, oh-oh (oh-oh)
Growth and pain, growth and pain (oh-oh), growth and pain
They feel the same (oh-oh), feel the same, feel the same
Still don't know the difference, I hope that can change
'Cause love and hate, they still feel the same
Feel the same
