I should hate you

Last night, I spiraled alone in the kitchen Making pretend that the furniture listened Wasn't the best of my mental conditions, but I tried Thinkin' of you without any forgiveness Because I was the one who would stay up and call you And I'd drive to your house for the shit that you went through Then I wasted my breath when I tried to console you, didn't I? 'Cause we didn't happen the way we were supposed to I know that I should hate you I know that I should hate you Pulled the knife out my back, it was right where you left it But your aim's kinda perfect, I'll give you the credit I just drank somethin' strong to try to forget, but it wasn't right No, you're not even here, but you're doin' my head in I know that I should hate you I know that I should hate you I know that I should hate you Ooh, ooh I should hate you, I feel stupid like I almost crashed my car Drivin' home to talk about you at my table in the dark All I ever think about is where the hell you even are And I swear to god, I'd kill you if I loved you less hard After all of this time, I still get disappointed Bet you're doin' alright and you don't even know it How it's all 'cause of you that my standards are broken in my mind I would bend back to you if you left the door open I know that I should hate you I know that I should hate you I know that I should hate you Ooh, ooh I know that I should hate you I know that I should hate you I know that I should hate you Ooh, ooh