What's a Eulogy?

I had originally called this mother fucka What Is Written In Blood

But then my folks came out with their album entitled Written In Blood

So I changed this

So welcome... to What Is A Eulogy

Studying my pen again, opening my wrist again

Peeling back my skin again, so I can write my eulogy without a pen

Studying my pen again, opening my wrist again

Peeling back my skin again, so I can write my eulogy without a pen

People thinking that I'm joking when I'm saying that I don't want to be here no more

But my heart's on the floor, and I don't see hope when I'm looking out the window

Hard to breathe even without the indo, but I don't want to face reality sober

I'm all alone, keep thinking about life when it's over

I walk with my head down dripping, soaked in the rain

You can't tell me shit with my heart still soaked in this pain

I feel if I end my life, then I'm a be soaked in flames

But burning is nothing when the devil is already knowing your name

Studying my pen again, opening my wrist again

Peeling back my skin again, so I can write my eulogy without a pen

Studying my pen again, opening my wrist again

Peeling back my skin again, so I can write my eulogy without a pen

I used to be good, but I ended up doing bad

Played games with a body bag, names on a body cast, every time that I got mad

Gave my life up 'cause I'm mad, let my blood pour out I'm mad

Backwards damaged this shit's so sad, lost everything I had

Did so much for everyone else yet all I heard was I did for myself

My life for my kids benefit, I felt they couldn't depend on anyone else

Do good with no witnesses but pain was all I was dealt

You could read my palms like Braille, just take a look at the welts

Studying my pen again, opening my wrist again

Peeling back my skin again, so I can write my eulogy without a pen

Studying my pen again, opening my wrist again

Peeling back my skin again, so I can write my eulogy without a pen