Rapture Chaser

Watch your friend baptize her daughter in the river

And talk amongst themselves of what was lost in the flood

You're sitting barefoot on the porch of your parent's ruined doorstep

Rag up to your nose, holding back the blood

Eight years away, to come home to this

Getting smashed up in the basement

In the silence there, you thought

You might have lost your chance at heaven

But if everyone's gone in rapture

Would you want to get better?

You had dreams of living in New York

Like one of the skinny ones

But you pawned a few of them off and met a man out west

Now your pale skin catches fire

No matter how deep you feel buried

And that hatred in the mirror you can't express

But now there are wrinkles on your forehead

And the city is too expensive

You hear everyone laughing like

You're still that awkward kid

If everyone's gone in rapture

Why don't you want to get better?

Your heart will never be full

So don't waste your grief on fools

The pain is everywhere

If you go looking

The pain is everywhere

Saying "come find me"

The pain is everywhere

Why are you searching?

The pain is everywhere

The pain is everywhere

If everyone's gone in rapture

Why don't you want to get better?

Your heart will never be full

So don't waste your grief on fools

The pain is everywhere

If everyone's gone in rapture

The pain is everywhere

Why don't you want to get better?

The pain is everywhere

Everyone's gone in rapture

The pain is everywhere

Why don't you want to get better?

And everyone's gone in rapture

But you didn't want to get better