Hard Enough

Deep down, I feel like a monster

Why won't you help me

'Cause it's hard enough for me

In my head, in my thoughts, in my words

and I don't get to see you so often

So I feel so cold

Because it's hard enough for me

In my head, in my thoughts, in my words

Unconditional

Feeling so miserable

Teach me the ways to your heart, the ways to your mind, quit wasting my time

It's a miracle

All the lies that I've been through

You were too busy, breaking my heart, infecting my mind, I'm chasing my soul

All the times that I had to say amen

I was cold and you still left me aimless

On the scene I was afraid to talk

I was keeping all these words in my head

And it filled my heart full of hatred

Now I think about those times that I wasted

No light on my skin 'cause

I see these visions, yeah, they got me blinded

Do you ever get this feeling in your chest

Like you're trying hard to breathe

But you ain't got nothing left

Now you're crying in your shower

And you thinking 'bout your ex

Feeling pushed against the wall

And life has got you by the neck

Like you ain't fitting in this place

And 'cause you got broken by a text

And you feel like a disgrace

Because your life is such a mess

But trust me time will heal you

You ain't nothing less than blessed

You just gotta stand up from this test

Deep down, I feel like a monster

Why won't you help me

'Cause it's hard enough for me

In my head, in my thoughts, in my words

And I don't get to see you so often

So I feel so cold

Because it's hard enough for me

In my head, in my thoughts, in my words

I miss the times when we would go out and play

I miss the times when we didn't care 'bout the fakes

The memories yeah, I got them engraved in my brain

Telling me why, it's not been the same

No matter how many phone calls we make

The fact is that things will never be saved

Let's just put a pause on life, let's start walking by

Before I end up in my grave

Falling behind, can't reach to me

And I'm tryna find the piece to peace

Caught me looking at you like na, na, na

You got me magical like ta, da, da

And you're not an enemy to me

I just miss the friends we used to be

Maybe I'm just dreaming too much, maybe I'm just seeing too much

Tasting life, I'm feeling so priceless

Will my life end at the end of a rifle

As the time bends, Imma spend all the right words

On the right ones

Tell me what is my life worth?

When I think about you, I think of pretty flowers

And every time that we kiss, yeah you gimme power

Even though it's hard enough

You still push me through but I know that deep down

Deep down, I feel like a monster

Why won't you help me

'Cause it's hard enough for me

In my head, in my thoughts, in my words

And I don't get to see you so often

So I feel so cold

Because it's hard enough for me

In my head, in my thoughts, in my words

Deep down, I feel like a monster

Why won't you help me

'Cause it's hard enough for me

In my head, in my thoughts, in my words

And I don't get to see you so often

So I feel so cold

Because it's hard enough for me

In my head, in my thoughts, in my words