Shazuan's Letter

I woke up

Feeling invincible today,

But sometimes

I choke up

Thinking about the yesterdays,

And maybe I

Don't know much

But I think I know enough,

Enough to call out my bluffs,

Enough to say that's enough

I know you're bad for my lungs

But what if I had one last puff?

But what if I had one last puff?

Cause I've got urges I'm fighting

Revenge and my vices

But lately I've been contemplating more

Like who do I even do all this for?

I think I said everything I need to say

I know it's time to go now,

I can feel my heart wants change

I walk this path alone,

I'm so afraid to walk away

I used to wanna be real,

Now I just want to be free

Don't wait, don't wait, don't wait on me

Don't wait, don't wait, don't wait on me

Was so close, could taste it, always at the cusp but,

Was never enough, I gave in to temptation

Now I wake up and feel a sense of impending doom

Reality's settling subtly like suns in afternoons

And more often than not I feel like my time is coming soon

Do you water seeds to watch the garden grow?

Embracing letting go, time to close the chapter

The art of detachment, prayer over manifesting

Do you water seeds to watch the garden grow?

What is your intention? Attention?

To answer questions? Inconsequential

My heart was meant for way more than this,

I did my thing, I spilled guts in verses, yeah, I was a vessel

Maybe it's time for me to call it quits

I can't just stay in fear of what I'll miss

Walking away but I'm an eternal pedestrian

Walking away over second guessing my feet

Walking away but walking to where I am destined

Walking away but this time I'm walking to me

I know it's time to go now,

I can feel my heart wants change

I walk this path alone,

I ain't afraid to walk away

I used to wanna be real,

Now I just want to be free

Don't wait, don't wait, don't wait on me

Don't wait, don't wait, don't wait on me