los angeles

You're out in Los Angeles

I'm still stuck at home

You're out drinkin' Jack

And I'm betting you'll take him home

You're out making memories

Some of them you'll regret

But nothing can match the feeling of

Spending time with your friends

You're out there for your dreams

You don't care what people think

But you're cutting me so deep to the bone

You're out there sharing laughs

I'm having panic attacks

And hoping I'll get you back, but I won't

I lost my voice from all the screaming, I'm so terrified

One day you'll leave me like my mother, I'm so traumatized

These things I do remind me who I never wanna be

Sometimes it's hard to believe, I see my mother in me

You didn't say anything

Now I'm overthinkin'

I was 'bout to go to sleep

Instead, I'm up and drinkin'

Don't make me double up

I don't need another cup

I'd tell you how I've been

But I know you don't give a—

'Cause you don't ever text, you don't ever call

I spent way too many nights drinkin' alcohol

I get way too in my head, but you know that

Smokin' in your bed takes me way back

I don't wanna text, I don't wanna call

I sent one the other day, I got no response

I can't take another hit, I'll be so sad

I wish it was good but it's all bad

Don't tell me you love me if you prolly won't the next month

Don't act like you want me, and then treat me like a no one

Make me think I'm lucky and then leave me in the dust, huh

Make me fall for you then act like you don't give a fuck

You're out in Los Angeles

I'm still stuck at home

You're out drinkin' Jack

And I'm betting you'll take him home

You're out making memories

Some of them you'll regret

But nothing can match the feeling of

Spending time with your friends

You're out there for your dreams

You don't care what people think

But you're cutting me so deep to the bone

You're out there sharing laughs

I'm having panic attacks

And hoping I'll get you back, but I won't