Enjoy

When the lights go out and I put the chairs on the table

Close the door behind me, one more check just to be sure

I've been checked out and died at my own hands

I don't remember yesterday, but I know what I have planned

When he leaves, I burn up all my skin

I know it sounds weak, but it's just easier to give in

And it scares me that I might be correct

Is this everything I could be? Am I done at the end?

Ah, ah, ah

Ah, ah, ah, ah

Ah, ah, ah, ah

Ah, ah, ah, ah

Living in the moment sounds like heaven to me

But I know I'll always feel like something's missing

Ungrateful is what you could call me

I am everything I always wanted to be

And my mother, I know she's proud of me

But I wanna give up, I can only give all or nothing

If it's not perfect, then it's not worth trying

I'm counting all the steps until the day that I'll be dying

Why can't I enjoy anything?

I can't enjoy anything

Why? Why? Why?

Why can't I enjoy anything?

I can't enjoy anything

Ooh, ooh, ooh

Ooh, ooh, ooh

Ooh, ooh, ooh

Ooh, ooh, ooh, oh

Oh, oh