Shared Eyes

Oh hey it's me again, and while I know your times so quickly spent I figured this would be a great time to misunderstand me I used to beg and plead but you sit there ever silently 'Cause you can't hear it, won't stand to hear it So I'll shout this behind your back But whisper carefully planned facts To the eyes that stare beyond my own I'll tell those eyes I share with you All of my tales poisoned with truth Force them down so I can watch you choke I'm not who you think I am, if you think of me at all In that callous ground of loneliness you've planted my upward fall You've let hate blossom now you cannot recognize If you'd only shared your eyes Your eyes you share with mine I wish your silence came from hate Then at least I'd know why I'm to blame But a fool I'd stayed a prey within a drought to drown in the rain So fine I'll find the rage to scorch out on my own, and in my wreckage May you burn upon your throne forged from unbloodied stones Do you see yourself in me So your inner harm finds somewhere else to be The reflection stings so rejection brings A mirrored shame that's shared 'tween our pair of frames It seems to be that I have always been the problem Though I'd wish to solve it Foolishly I've gone and charred each star that's fallen I'm not who you think I am when you think you've seen it all In this frozen state of apathy I've blossomed with every flaw To hate I've fallen and I now can't recognize Your eyes that you despise the eyes you share with mine This feels wrong it's not playing out right How am I colder now upon a bridge I chose to ignite Am I all wrong it doesn't feel like it should This hollow triumph doesn't fill the pain I thought it would I've spent so long why do I pity you now You've yet to change so in your place I've learned to torture myself How could you be so blind You close your eyes but you open mine I hate the way you make me hate myself for sharing eyes You're not who you think you are and I wish I never knew I don't want to see the irony that you hate me for being you Pushed me to walk these starless skies 'Cause I'll never shine as bright as the light of your eyes What good is it to even try You'll never hear or see or face all the parts of you you despise Come to life standing right 'fore your eyes in spite Reminding both of us have wished on a starless night You can try as you might You can lie, fantasize but we both see your eyes Your eyes in mine