Ox

Eyes rolled back

I convulse, I convulse until I vomit

No way back

The room is spinning, lights are dimming

I can feel my

Limbs go numb

I'm no longer a passenger inside this

God damn life

Every waking moment I can't stomach how they talk their shit

Disowning their flaws and spewing sickness every time they breathe

My methods unorthodox in parallel yet kingdom come

Trust me when I say this "I can't take it so I made my exit"

But when I opened my eyes

And I realized everything had falsified

Falsified

Ox, Ox

Every detail, every fault

This just might be hell

I shouldn't be here

I awoke in this fabrication

Remove me from the equation

From the fakest friends

To the dullest life

I thought I could bail on this existence

But I guess I fucked that up too

I couldn't swallow all the apathy

I couldn't stomach all the pain

Everything is such a tragedy

I am crushed under the weight

I have to question everything

This can't be real

Not a day or single moment

Could I ever feel again

Ox

Convulsions

Exhumed

No more living in the moment

The past was never real