Dark Paradise

I'll say goodbye

To what I thought I knew it meant to be alive

Run back and forth inside my head

I've been counting every reason just to try and make this all make sense

But I keep on coming back with all these

Wounds to stitch

No room to switch

All my panic into something I can

Use to fix

My selfishness

How long will I just sit

And watch the disconnection grow

Til it can't be fixed

The damage done

That's the consequence

Of burning bridges

That you shouldn't have lit

Straight down

I just think it's hard to pretend we're straight now

I can't shake them the complications

That I found

Searching for a future without you

Lusting for something that feels brand new

Wishing you could feel just like I do

Straight down

I can't look myself in the mirror

Holding on til I can see clearer

Hoping I can piece things together

I've got myself to blame

Nobody else but me

For my lack of happiness

I just gave up and that was it

I just don't think it's right for me

To live so selfishly

Why do I always play pretend

Only holding back what I'm feeling within