F****D UP

I'll just be honest

The shit I would see momma do

Had an impact on all of these sonnets

The shit I would see grandma do

Had an impact that's why I be silent

A shit load of problems were due

Back then I thought that I wasn't solid

Guess what

I am

Fucked up

Heading at mommas house

Fucked up

Leaving my grandma house

Fucked up

Living life

In and out

I am

Fucked up

Heading at mommas house

Fucked up

Leaving my grandma house

Fucked up

Living life

In and out

Family members that stuck by my side

Can't remember who still is alive

They would never surpass number 5

Clenching my fist

Bitch

Spot me out

Bitch

Need an assist

Shit

I thought I needed some help growing up

Now it's all making sense

I wasn't present for most of my cousins

Achievements

I gave them presents instead of my presence

Since then I could never unsee it

Momma kept telling me please stay in touch

With the fam it would be well received

All I could do was feed them with some lies

Like I am doing fine in deceit

Turnt out they needed my help the most

Been unconscious if I was a blessing

Got a position to hold

A role model that scolds for the better

My intuition gives hope to my cousins

Since my adolescence

Guess what

I am

Fucked up

Heading at mommas house

Fucked up

Leaving my grandma house

Fucked up

Living life

In and out

I am

Fucked up

Heading at mommas house

Fucked up

Leaving my grandma house

Fucked up

Living life

In and out

Family members that stuck by my side

Can't remember who still is alive

They would never surpass number 10

Bitch I'm the man

Bitch

Don't

Spot me out

Bitch

Don't

Need an assist

Shit

I thought I needed some help growing up

Now it's all making sense