Can't Keep Picking Me Up

I let the grass grow under my feet I won't make you stay I won't help you leave Empty Crayon boxes Colors I've forgotten Painted you in black and white The fruits gone rotten Withdrawal, detox The jokes on me You were holding my hand and I was holding you back You were pulling me over when I wanted to crash No seriously I'm not strong enough I'll keep falling down You can't keep picking me up I can't help what comes out of my mouth What were we saying? What was I talking about? Left it on the table Baptized with a label Drowning in the water But I'm incapable Coughing, laughter Choking clown You were holding my hand and I was holding you back You were pulling me over when I wanted to crash No seriously I'm not strong enough I'll keep falling down You can't keep picking me up I washed up face down on the shore You gave me everything, couldn't of asked for more A hopeless romantic Broken trust I panicked My smile stained with coffee Cigarettes organic Soapbox savior Alone at war You were holding my hand and I was holding you back You were pulling me over when I wanted to crash No seriously I'm not strong enough I'll keep falling down You can't keep picking me up I let the grass grow under my feet I couldn't help you stay so I made you leave