Breaking the Habit

You got to get a hold of yourself You're a prisoner of your own mind Memories consume like opening the wound I'm picking me apart again You all assume I'm safe here in my room Unless I try to start again I don't want to be the one the battles always choose 'Cause inside I realized that I'm the one confused I don't know what's worth fighting for, or why I have to scream I don't know why I instigate, and say what I don't mean I don't know how I got this way; I know it's not alright So, I'm breaking the habit I'm breaking the habit tonight Clutching my cure, I tightly lock the door I try to catch my breath again (whoa) I hurt much more than any time before I had no options left again I don't want to be the one the battles always choose 'Cause inside I realized that I'm the one confused I don't know what's worth fighting for, or why I have to scream I don't know why I instigate, and say what I don't mean I don't know how I got this way, I'll never be alright So, I'm breaking the habit I'm breaking the habit tonight I'll paint it on the walls 'Cause I'm the one at fault I'll never fight again And this is how it ends You all assume I'm safe here in my room Unless I try to start again I'm breaking the habit, breaking the habit I don't know what's worth fighting for, or why I have to scream But now I have some clarity to show you what I mean I don't know how I got this way, I'll never be alright So, I'm breaking the habit I'm breaking the habit I'm breaking the habit tonight