Left my home i left the ones that were there in sickness and health

Left some love in a distant past I'm still yearning of getting it back

I still think of that side of the street I don't say it but I'm missing all of your laughs

I'm Missing some people that left too soon but this house of memories will never forget

That house the walls the stars the moon that listened and saw me cry

That Friendship, the jokes, the fights and love that I might never find

Again will it be the same different country a whole different time

A lot of my friends that weren't there at my lowest but would never let me just wave them goodbye

I know what you've been through I know what you're destined to be

I know about all your doubts I know when you cried in one of those sheets

I still remember that time my homie was talking bout wanting to cut off his wrists

I remember the time my dad told me if you find peace with your pride you'll never be free

But I had to make that decision leave it all in the past

Fly thousands of miles in hope for my dreams to be within my grasp

I know its been months since I last picked up the phone and sent you a text

But it's kind of the same for us all so lonely together I guess that's what you call modern loneliness

I'm prolly holdin them

Regrets and grudges too close to my chest

In a fear of losing them

I fear I'm losing my faith in finding the one

Soon as I go down on my memory lane

I'm prolly insane

Oops I did it again

I fell for a girl she 10 out of 10

I've never seen someone so hypnotizing but I told myself never again

But I'm only human who never learn

Sat with her told her she's all that I need I'm lost in the moment and I know the train

Of my thoughts gon' fly off the rails as soon as these words erupt as I say

I think that we're meant to be together and I think that you feel the same

Then I cracked myself as I walked all alone in the rain

Just thinking of all could have been

I knew we were fated to sit hundreds of miles apart in just a couple of weeks

And she told me she couldn't see us connecting on them levels well,

that hurt but it is what it is

I just can't live in the fear of what could have been

But as time erodes and contrives emotions I hope there's a time where we

Sit on the shore just lookin at moon but this time I'll hold you closer to me

And I'll swallow my pride and apologies for all the mistakes

As I say I don't know the future but all the moments with you were just like a gift

Maybe one day you'll see what I saw but that don't mean I ain't glad that we met

I hope you'll get a sudden rush of the memories as the day comes to an end

And tell me you'll find me when all my emotions revive and hold me captive

I'm disconnected, bit broken, fictitious, a bit neglected

I'm mute, I'm chokin on words that I'll never speak afraid of bein rejected

For being me and apologies to the man in the mirror for putting you down to keep some empty

Space for people who don't even matter but ya I've learned my lesson

Just know next time I'll be standin in front with the armour and sword and promise don't matter

If I'm the only one there, I'll fight the whole world you don't gotta stress it

Coz I know you'll be the only one with me when the reaper shows up to get me

I'm done