The Secret (Uats Version)

Have you not seen how I hold on tight

Did you forget that I feel your blame forevermore

Did you give up now for nothing

I feel so fragile, so numb inside. My heart is sore

Why has the poison taken hold of me

It is no secret, the noise in me will never die

There is no antidote, I have no cure

My light has withered. I say no more. I can not stay

The door is locked, I’m sure

My hands are clean

My keys are on me

I check again

I’m always tired

I never want to sleep

My dreams bedevil me

My breath is never deep

I am my best friend

I am my biggest enemy

That is who I am

That is nothing I can change

I force myself to speak,

feel insecure

Too scared of people

in awkward silence

I feel so paralyzed

but still I speak

I’m disembodied

I need to run away