Clos3d Doors (feat. Cam Hayden & Pareto)

Behind closed doors, I'm still stuck in my old ways

Still roll up in here and say oh wait

Behind closed doors, I'm still stuck in my old ways

Still roll up in here and say oh wait

And behind closed doors

I still limit my existence (My existence)

I live inside my screen

'Cause that is where my fanbase lives in (Where my fanbase lives in)

I feel caught in between the medium and social media

Still having all these feelings but neglecting on my vehicle

Respectfully all y'all opinions is not that meaningful

But it's not meaningless

Don't get it twisted

There's just layers to this shit

An ogre and a biscuit

And we could get into it

Been needing to get a little intimate

See I got secrets come and peep it

I got reasons but I'm kinda non-discreet with it

See to me it seems that I'm flying under the radar

But I post my Spotify in the group chat at my day job (Day job)

But I'm 'posed to

You know in the ropes of self-promotion

Look at my socials

I just posted

Listeners growing

Little fish in a little pond

Finna get in the ocean

Spend money that I don't got

On a little recording, a lotta promotion

Spend money that I don't got

On some big dreams but none of my goals

Behind closed doors, I'm still stuck in my old ways

Still roll up in here and say oh wait

What was you talkin' about?

I'm just talking about what I'm really like

Behind closed doors

Behind closed doors

Aight okay

Behind closed doors I seem to be more conflicted (Okay)

'Cause who I am and who I was are met with contradictions (Slay)

'Cause you see

I had dreams of dipping my toes in scenes and being remembered easily (Cam Hayden drop the sauce)

Uh, uh

Had premonition's like "What if I was the greatest?" (woah)

While wiping down tables and thinking "How do I make rent?" (haha right)

You know the stories

Starving artist for glory (Yeah)

That shit is kinda pretentious

I figure you'd just support me (Yeah you'd think right)

Gettin' tired of trying so hard to get y'all to listen to what we on

Emotional rollercoaster

It's funny that I keep goin'

Still seeing the light at end of the tunnel

What keep me going

(Shit man I don't even know these things)

The remedy to success

On a road to riches

And bow tied with stress

I b line depression

And put it all into text *notification pop*

They decline my efforts

I'm saying that I'm the best

I understand that, "the best"

'Cause I'm the best

At being the worst listener

Behind closed doors

I'm a bone store prisoner

Loads more typical

I'm in a tipping boat

But I ain't using my noggin (using my noggin)

Been indifferent

Tiptoeing 'round the root of the problem

Future is calling *ring*

I ain't wanna pick up

Need to focus

Gotta ghost

Rather blow a spliff up

Matador battling demons

Leaking from catacombs

After all the front

It's still the same old me (Same old me)

People like me when I'm drinking

Thinking they know me

But they wouldn't fuck with me

If I let my brain run free

I got thoughts my mind chases

Put a cage on me

I got locks in high places

So I stay low-key (I stay low-key)

Behind closed doors, I don't be who I say

Wonder what it is that keeps me awake

Like, do I really wish for the dreams that I chase?

Or do I write sixteens to escape

Behind closed doors, I'm still stuck in my old ways

Yeah, yeah, yeah

Behind closed doors, I'm still stuck in my old ways

(Actually Nick do you want to take it from here)

(Yeah I gotchu bro)

Yeah, yeah, yeah

Behind closed doors, I'm still stuck in my old ways

Still roll up in here and say oh wait

And behind closed doors man I'm always in a rush, trust

I always make a fuss 'cause I'm not blowing up

Just got a thousand follows off a single post

But you know bro

Enough is never enough

I get so many notifications bro

I'm never gonna keep up

I just—

I don't know how I'm gonna keep up with this shit

It just, it clouds my mind