Blinded

As I sink into my own lies

I'm finding it hard to find purpose

I feel rejected by everyone

As I sink into my own lies

Would you still be here

If I had something else to offer

Or nothing at all?

I want to hide myself away

Away from everyone I know

You say it's fine

But I've got the scars to show

Cause I don't know

What I'm worth

To anyone

Fuck

I try to say the words but they're not coming to me

I wanna scream the words but they're not coming to me

Oh fuck

I'm finding it hard to find purpose

I feel rejected by everyone

As I sink into my own lies

I can't even think what I offer

I don't even know what I'm meant to do with the days that I've got left on this earth

Someone tell me

What am I supposed to do

How am I supposed to act

I can't see the value in anything

I can't even keep up with the lies

I tell myself, cause every damn time I open up

I'm met with those eyes

It kills me

I can't see this

Through any other lense

Than I have seen with my own two eyes

It blinds me

Blinds me

Nah wait

I overthink every little thing that I've said to anyone that's out of my circle

And I'll drag myself down

With the fucking guilt

As I sink into my own lies

I cant even begin to fathom the idea

Of having any fucking clue

What I'm supposed to do

I don't even know what I'm worth

I'm sinking

How can I be anything different

If I can't find me when I'm sinking

It blinds me

I'm sinking