PANIC

You count the days and hours that follow

Another heart attack within minutes

You drown in your body and hold your breath

And it was supposed to be so beautiful...

You try to gather your thoughts together

Your peace has been taken away, you can't escape it

Trembling body, unable to release emotions

A silent scream that only you can hear

Fear of the chemistry released in your mind

It controls every cell and poisons your being

Breaking out of this vicious circle seems impossible

You are once again overcome by pain

Your thoughts are flat and desperate

Surviving another attack is like winning another life

Lack of control causes suffering

Another attempt at liberation is useless

You count the days and hours that follow

Another heart attack within minutes

You drown in your body and hold your breath

And it was supposed to be so beautiful...

Immobilized by fear, you grasp greedily for life

Which is about to disappear, only to reappear in a moment

The cold wave of sweat is on forehead again

You gasp for air so as not to suffocate

Out of control, rapid breathing,

Saved... till the next time