Nine

I smile at my shadow

As it laughs back at me

My hands feel like they're shrinking I can barely feel my feet

Reminds me of old Sunday's when the world was on it's seat

Never felt so normal but so weird to be a freak

Nine times I've lied

Nine times you've healed

Nine times I wonder why

You ever stayed with me

What if I can't bleed

When I'm cut with your razor?

What if I can't see

The way you go down?

What if I don't know

If this is the end all?

Nine times I've tried

To be with you my dear

If I can paint a picture

Of the future, I would

But darling I can tell you won't be easy if I could

Never did I feel like I needed relief

From the suffering I went through

Just to get back on my feet

Nine times I've lied

Nine times you've healed

Nine times I wonder why you ever stayed with me

Nine times I've shied away from you

Nine times I've ran away

What if I can't bleed

When I cut with your razor?

What if I can't see

The way you go down?

What if I don't know

If this is the end all?

Nine times I've tried

To be with you my dear

Nine times, oh I feel it

Nine times, oh I feel it

Nine times, oh I feel it

Nine times, oh good lord I feel it