These Lies

I'm not gonna lie to you anymore

After these lies, then no more

I never really loved you at all

So just walk away and don't ever call

Your kiss, it never brought me to my knees

I didn't ache for you until my heart would cease

And time, it never slowed down over us

When you were here with me it was never thus

Ooh and my hand never dials up your number

And it's not like I want you to wonder

If I'm lost and I'm thinking of you

'Cause yes I am fine and I'm finally clearer

To understand what it is to be nearer

And that love is just pain in reverse

And all these lies are mine

And they're the only thing that's fine

And the only way I'll wear this for now

'Cause when we meet again

You won't see it in me then

'Cause I've buried it in all that you're not

And so all I've got are lies for you even now

They're all carved in me, in the dust somehow

So when I say I never felt the garden burst into life

When I looked at you, well, it must be true

'Cause I've told myself a million times who you weren't

So I can finally forget who you were

'Cause if who you are is everything and I missed it

How could I live now like some counterfeit?

Ooh and my hand never dials up your number

And it's not like I want you to wonder

If I'm lost and I'm thinking of you

'Cause, yes, I am fine and I'm finally clearer

To understand what it is to be nearer

And that love is just pain in reverse

And all these lies are mine

And they're the only thing that's fine

And the only way I'll wear this for now

And when we met again

You won't see it in me then

'Cause I've buried it in all that you're not

I'm not gonna lie to you anymore

After these lies, then no more