half a man

I swear to God you liked me once 

But now I’m not enough or way too much 

My happiness seems to piss you off 

But when I’m sad you don’t care at all

Worse things could have happened here

I feel more safe with you than I have in years 

If I can’t find a way to see this through 

Will your mom think I abandoned you?

Hmmmm I shouldn’t have to search for evidence you love me

Hmmmm I can feel that somethings missing when you touch me

Cause you’re half here and half gone 

I was half right to stay strong 

And I don’t know where I went wrong

So I made myself so small 

There were good days in the bad years

And I re-live them just to stay right here

While I try to understand

How to love half a man

Guess I’m the product of a broken home

Giving more for less is all I’ve ever known

I try my best to not believe that

You could be mean enough to mean it

Each time I felt like an embarrassment 

When I was trying to be affectionate

But the routine of it was kinda nice 

You were predictable in all your spite 

Hmmmm I shouldn’t have to search for evidence you love me

Hmmmm you’re only present when you find a chance to judge me

Cause you’re half here and half gone 

I was half right to stay strong 

And I don’t know where I went wrong

So I made myself so small 

There were good days in the bad years

And I re-live them just to stay right here

While I try to understand

How to love half a man

So don’t hate me I wanted to stay

Don’t blame me for walking away 

I can’t hang on to something you don’t wanna save

I’m changing, I’m tryna be brave

I’ve outgrown being treated this way

I can’t hang on to someone I know I can’t save 

You were half here and half gone 

I was half right to stay strong 

And I don’t know where we went wrong

So I made myself so small 

You were half in and half out 

And half of me thinks it’s my fault 

But you have to understand

I can’t love half a man