Right Now

You could tell me that in 45 years

I'll be worshipping myself for shedding these tears

But I don't feel strong enough right now

And I've been watching these videos with tarot cards

They say you gotta be strong

Gotta follow your heart

But I don't feel strong enough right now

And I could write it so well on paper

The rising action

Fatal compassion

But I'll just say 'see you later'

'No, nothing's wrong

It's nothing major I swear...'

Only God will ever know I'm lying

Inside I'm feeling like the worst has happened

But I'm living with no reaction

And I'm strong enough to hurt myself

For the rest of my life

But I'm not strong enough

To let you down

Right now

You could tell me that to see the light

At the end of the tunnel

Gotta learn to fight,

But I don't feel strong enough right now

I've got a paralyzing fear of seeing blood

On the clothes of someone that I love

Because they can't take it, no they're not that tough

But it might be myself that I'm thinking of

And I could write it so well on paper

The rising action

Fatal compassion

You could call it productive danger

Hurt them once, they'll thank you later I swear...

But I'm not strong enough to even try it

Inside I'm feeling like the worst has happened

But I'm living with no reaction

And I'm strong enough to hurt myself

For the rest of my life

But I'm not strong enough to let you down

Right now

Right now

It's a quarter past eleven

I've been driving 'round in circles

Never asking for directions

Right now

If you called to say 'hello'

If you asked me how I am

Maybe I would come back home

Right now

I'm probably overthinking

Right now

My sanity is sinking

But I'm not strong enough to let you down

Right now