You & I

i got some form of depression but not the sad kind.

its the type where you accept the bad & you just act fine.

& i only asked you for yo heart because you had mine..

i just keep hurting myself & swearing this the last time!

i pray i find the peace that i be giving!

my loneliest days were days i needed some forgiveness.

learned the ones who fill that void end up destroying you wit vengeance..

tryna fix everyone around you, left you broken hearted .. didnt it?

i know cause dat was me!

when you looking in the rear its hard to see

where you gone go next!

like feeling cursed but knowing that you so blessed..

when the pain suffocating, you tryna breath but you struggling?

the ones you need the most not even aware that you suffering!

you gasping!

been begging for air, its beyond asking in this moment..

you arriving to hell, & no one there to notice..

that yo spirit on fire but you still itching to love em..

when yo heart want to submit but yo mind refusing to trust em.

thats the main source of yo pain.

gaurded up you so afraid.. that you gone drown in them waters, so used to dancing in that rain!

im just speaking from a place of understanding!

i was bleeding out my effort just to end up empty handed..

guess we just alike.

thats why im triggered & my first defense is always fight.

thats why im lonely when its dark for me, they took my light.

wanted love so bad, i sacrifice my life to get it right.

im tired gambling with my heart, can someone please come take these dice.