Roan

Black feather on the carpet

In Vivien's back room

Where you kept me warm

A glimpse that one day

I'll believe in

Someone accepting my physical form

If I wasn't so broken

You could have me

Body and soul

Body and soul

But for now

Just take this

A body unacceptable and abandoned

Unacceptable and abandoned

But you were so unwavering

Such a pretty boy

Just a sweet prince

A knight in black lipstick holding me down

And when I couldn't breathe

I watched you transform

Into a flock of ravens

Not long after sunrise

You were showing me

Divinity

What we are in camaraderie

A world within

The sweetness of your skin

Escape everywhere

Inwards-pointing and always pointing in

So I remembered

Every word you said

Breadcrumbs leading me back

To the exit you showed me

Points on my body

Unhealed tattoos

Soft hips, soft lips

Incantations

Between the carpet and your claws

And the caws between sleeps

Sudden wingbeats