So, what brings you in here today?

I don't really like to go outside in my hometown

If I do i want to go somewhere else where nobody really knows me.

I'm terrified of running into people that I vaguely know

The best case scenario is a slight head nod and we go on our separate ways

The worst case being we stop and have idle conversation where I dissect every word that was said for days on end after the fact

Digging a hole in my head where I go over every detail of the interaction until I'm convinced I said the exact wrong things at every opportunity

I'm scared of everyone, everybody hates me

I'm scared of everyone, everybody hates me

Is there something burning in here or is it just me? It's just me

I'm scared of everyone, everybody hates me

"Nothing changes if nothing changes" my best friend told me that a few years ago and I've thought about it every day since.

If nothing changes if nothing changes, then why haven't I been making the changes I need to change?

I think I have backed myself into a corner instead of creating one, and I'm too afraid to change it now.

If nothing changes nothing changes but how do you go about making the right changes?