Feel Better

Did I ruin your life by loving you?

Only wanted what was best for you

As if I know better

When I'm no better

Did I hold you too tight?

Did it frighten you?

Only wanted reassurance, babe

Shouldn't have to beg just to get your attention

And when I dream, I dream it's black & white

But then I wake aching with resentment

And all I see is red, red, red

Oh, I guess I'm still angry

Muscles still tensing

Tired of pretending it's just an ending

And not a tragedy

And does it ever get better?

I wanna feel better

What if it never gets better?

Did I ruin my life by leaving you?

Only wanted what was best for me

As if this is better

What if I'm sad forever?

And I know I ought to

But I can't forgive you

It's just like every time that I try

I vilify

Like if you hadn't changed for the worse then

You might've still been my person

But when I dream, I dream I'm 35

It doesn't hurt, and I don't cry

It's like we never met, met, met

Oh, but for now I'm still healing

Bittersweet feeling

Tired of pretending it's just an ending

And will it ever get better?

I wanna feel better

Don't I deserve to feel better?

I just wanna feel better