Upside Down

Don't get me wrong cos I

I left it all behind

But I don't know where to begin

Or start over again

I finally let go of the trauma I was holding on

And all that matters is the here and now

But where to start?

Another day, another uncertainty

Even with the reassurance

Avoiding conflict at every cost

Another day I am at a loss

Ooo the anxiety resides

Filling corners of my mind

What's normal when I'm upside down

They'll never understand, never understand

Ooo yeah

Delve in my mind

Then try saying it's fine

They're my worst critics

Judging every move

Lying ever still

I'm elusive in this hell

Need to rebuild on the remains

Of myself once again

Ignorant to always assume

Your narrow thoughts in full bloom

At an impasse, a full divide

You know nothing so we'll draw the line

Regardless I've stayed true

Never perfect yet I'm still augmenting

Like a tidal wave I've crashed, so withdrawn

Never natured red in tooth and claw

Lying ever still

I'm elusive in this hell

Need to rebuild on the remains

Of myself once again

Lying ever still

I'm elusive in this hell

Need to rebuild on the remains

Of myself once again

Severing ties to all deadweight

Make up for time that's lost

Replace stale air inside my lungs

Remember self care at all costs

Illuminate the dark

Construct what's torn apart

Relentless and unwavering

I won't lose my heart

(I won't lose my heart)

Crawling out my shell

Still alive, escaped from hell

Standing on solid foundations

I've found myself once again

Once again

And I won't lose my heart