Free (feat. Sinnia Brown)

I've been fighting all my demons and I'm going through the motions

And emotions got me feeling like I don't know where I'm going

And one day I'm up, next day I'm down

I'm trying to hold up my crown

Even in the dark days when it gets overwhelming

 I know that I can count on my kin sisters and my brethren

 I know not to fear not of what I can't control

God got my back regardless of who I call

My brain is tryna dig a bigger hole than I can float in

Depression got me going crazy

Need a doctor no shit

Seems like every other day a mother's losing babies

Seen to many of my friends a go this shit is crazy

Funerals they shouldn't be my silent occupation

Need a reprieve, a breath of fresh air, a reset

Free, free

I just want to be free

 I just wanna be free

I’m on a midnight Coltrane to Beale Street

 Blues paint somber but reflective moods on the windows

Flashes of my hero’s, dead or disappointing

Almost accustomed to loss, I found I made a normalcy of mourning

 Fighting to keep head up high with weight bearing down

 It sounds as if I’m complaining of my blessing

No longer investing myself in people that want attention over change

They act the same shackled fame

Do we want progress or praise?

But I only dwell on that on dark days

In a haze of sativa and sage

Setting pressures ablaze

Self-medicate and create

They listen more when it’s in lyrics

Now I understand why some drown sorrows conjuring drinking spirits

But I find joy in being almost childlike in spirit

Laughter punching through pain echoing through sound clouds for the world to hear it

But in the roll of thunder do you hear my cry?

 Or do you fear my pain?

I don't know where I'm going

One day I'm up

Next day I'm down

 I'm still tryna hold up my crown

My crown

My crown

Hold up my crown

 Crown

Crown

Crown designed my ancestral titans

Fighting the urge to crumble under pressures of anointing

Conjoining

The strengths of those that passed and those that will come

Empowered by the heartbeat, the drum of the overcome

However, sometimes those demons will dance too

With plans to

Tie your emotions up in knots like Bantu

As you balance light and darkness, less will understand you

But the mirror’s the only thing you have to stand to

Be free

While tomorrow is always a mystery

 Standing on periphery of history

It always repeats

With knowledge of the cycle

 It’s exhausting to teach

But they rather imagine me enjoying the beach

Than drowning in the wave needing to be saved

 And crave the image of me staying strong

One day I'm up next day I'm down

 I'm still trying to hold up my crown

 Fighting all my demons and I'm going through the

 Motions and emotions got me feeling like I don't know where I'm going

One day I'm up

Next day I'm down

I'm trying to hold up my crown

Cause I been going through the motions

And my feelings got me

But I know I'll be

 I'll be

I'll be free

Yeah