Still the same boy

Still the same guy

Still the same person who wanted to give you a new life

Clicked the same file

The songs I wrote while

Deleted because they’re tainted from your

Masterful confidence in beautiful lies

Trying to keep my mind from leaving you tonight

Crack a smile for the people you adore

But I can’t be that man anymore

I can’t fake another smile, I think I’m torn

Between being happy and your guy

Or being someone who thinks you aren’t my type

I don’t know why I try to be that man anymore

I can’t be the way I was before

I have tried many times to see this through

But denial always hurts, and I don’t think I love you

Heartbreak and heart attacks

I thought it was in the past

Trying to breathe through a straw only keeps you hanging on

I didn’t want to see the person I could be

When I left you because you centered all of me

My indecisiveness, my incompetence

My hope that I could change a bit to love you more

My hope that you would see how much you mean to me

But now I know that I still can’t be that man no more

I can’t fake another smile, I think I’m torn

Between being happy and your guy

Or being someone who thinks you aren’t my type

I don’t know why I try to be that man anymore

I can’t be the way I was before

I have tried many times to see this through

But denial always hurts, and I don’t think I love you