Crash Test Plane

Just swim there

If there's no water, carve yourself a river

This place is empty, you swore you would be there

And though I understand, it's nice to wonder

I won't call you

Tomorrow, when the water turns that dark blue

The ocean meets the sky, I thought I found you

It's killing me I never really knew

Oh, but

I come content with the ache

I got it for my birthday

And I struggle to explain

It's a knife in the back

It's a crash test plane

It's colder

Outside my door, but I barely remember

When I wasn't afraid of getting older

I don't want

To make this harder than it has to be, babe

But I'm dying inside each time I don't make

Something worth hearing

Oh, but

I come content with the ache

I got it for my birthday

And I struggle to explain

It's a knife in the back

It's a crash test

Plain sight

And you open my eyes, and it feels

Just like I think I'm gonna die in your arms tonight

I think I'm gonna burn right down

Oh, but

I come content with the ache

I got it for my birthday

I don't know what you want me to say

But it's all alright, and it's all okay, 'cause

I come content with the ache

I got it for my birthday

And I struggle to explain

It's a knife in the back

It's a crash test plane