In the Fall (Martyn Bootyspoon Remix)

Cat got your tongue, can't believe there once was

A flood of light between you and me

Sparkling wine and trauma bonds egg me on

To sit inside inadequacy

I would come to patch the holes

Smashed into the drywall

Still the paint would always show

Where my weaknesses fall

I would stand for you but never for myself

Catch the next train to Toronto

Try a different hell

I started worrying then, I'd never stand

Still long enough, it was common sense

Dreamed of that Lincoln Continental in the alley

Jack it and be out before the weekend

Don't know why I can't confront my shit

Don't get on that plane I'm gonna bury it

Surely in the fall I will catch a break

Schedule 12 days on the coast

Where I'll contemplate

Who I really am without the city

And my hot takes

Standing outside Casa while you

Beg me for a clean slate

I can see a future where we relate better

But it's your nature to spiral and get up from

The seat you have made

At our centre stage

You got it baby resign ourselves to separate fates

You used to always say there would come a day

You'd run out of rope for me

Babe, I'm not your enemy, I think you know I've never been

But I can't beat your narratives

You dig in

Then there's the childhood shit

Girl I am not equipped

Got me popping benzodiazepines

I love you so I try to stick to my routine

But when you say those things

I lose it all to emptying the Chablis

I should have known in the end

I'd be back on smoking

Trying to get my head off of death

Then there goes 49 days

I left it in that phase

Where you would turn it to a story of growth for you

Now I can't let nobody come in with hands so bloodied

Or I'll be washing it away, another character study

Surely in the fall I will catch a break

Schedule 12 days on the coast

Where I'll contemplate

Who I really am without the city

And my hot takes

Standing outside Casa while you

Beg me for a clean slate

I can see a future where we relate better

But it's your nature to spiral and get up from

The seat you have made

At our centre stage

You got it baby resign ourselves to separate fates