Self Destruct

I don't know if I've been sleeping or awake

Can you save me from myself, now? (Yeah)

I don't feel safe with no one else 'round

Everybody watching me, while I fight to breathe

But I choose to do this myself

And know, maybe, I've been too hurt to trust

Still don't think I deserve enough

And when things go right, I'm reminded of all that is evil

I've got that reside in the blood on a slow leak

I can feel the change when I'm on the path, but I can't let it go

Want you to feel the way that I feel, and try to get you to hear

But you won't

Falling, I made this bed that I crawl in

The darkness in me is calling

And all the while, the clock ticks down

I'm giving up, I've had enough

And I know I can't escape all this damage when I self-destruct

I didn't want for this to be how it ends

But everything dies when I turn to you, but you turn away

Why do I make you afraid?

I'm giving up, I've had enough

And I know I can't escape all this damage, so I self-destruct

Coming undone, I'm afraid every time that I love something

I'ma hold too tight, 'til it's fucked up

Am I the one, or the one you should run from, huh?

I've bottled it up, blame all the trauma, the system corrupt

Sick of pretending I'm not at the ending

And telling my friends I'm okay, when it's just never enough

Ne-never a moment to let you in

I don't know if I'll be anything better than what I've become, so I cut the connection

And if there's a button to end it, I'm pressing it

Falling, I made this bed that I crawl in

The darkness in me is calling

And all the while, the clock ticks down

I'm giving up, I've had enough

And I know I can't escape all this damage when I self-destruct

I didn't want for this to be how it ends

But everything dies when I turn to you, but you turn away

Why do I make you afraid?

I'm giving up, I've had enough

And I know I can't escape all this damage, so I self-destruct

So, I self-destruct, 'truct, 'truct

So, I self-destruct

So, I self-destruct, 'truct, 'truct

So, I self-destruct

Now, I'm giving up, I've had enough

And I know I can't escape all this damage when I self-destruct

I didn't want for this to be how it ends

But everything dies when I turn to you, but you turn away

Why do I make you afraid?

I'm giving up, I've had enough

And I know I can't escape all this damage, so I self-destruct