Rap Into Existence

Jumped on a train, I was heading up north, left Mum by the corner shop

Six week trial 'cah I just got released, and I can't do a normal job

Got signed within four weeks, I was ripping it up with the northern lot

Little did I know that shit's gonna change, next week I'll be falling off

That prick tried break my leg in the five-o's, I had to walk it off

I had to give him a pass 'cah it's out of your hands when they calling shots

Out couple weeks that's a minor, back on grass but I'm cordened off

Got burst the day before training, I had to ask for the morning off

I could tell that the gaffer had little problem with me, I couldn't ask him why

When he walks past me, can't even look in my eye

I knew I was gone at the end of the season, didn't give up, I was tryna survive

Singled out, so I'm on my own, I'm hitting the gym, straight back to the grind

200 miles from my guys, at least I can say I tried

I hit rock bottom but never gave up, I was literally staying alive

Mum told me to take my time, I wanted to take my life

I never gave up, through the pain I figh, 'cah I know what failure's like

But, but, but

The power of music compels you

Yeah, football didn't work, man

So I put down my boots and went back to London

'Cah that weren't my only talent

Picked up a mic

Started twining these rappers up

Moving to them on the pitch

Then shit went wrong

So what did I do?

Dropped "F*CKED IT"

They saying it's hard, but the streams don't fill up the hole that it left

I coulda laid down but I looked in the mirror like "Fuck it, we're going again"

It's not over, not yet, like, wait till I show them levs

I done a show with the dough I had left, and sold out merch through the whole damn set

When I'm vexed, I don't do lying down

I bring life to a dying crowd

I don't like relying on next man for helping hand, for my pride, I'll drown

I'm on the train with my head down, he asked for a pic, I said, "Not right now"

My first tape just to find my sound, this tape gonna bring the insiders out

I been seeing shit inside out recently, man

Feel like I need to talk to my future self

But what would I say?

If shit goes wrong, come back to this song

Every man gotta story, dog got a day, but cat got your tongue

Don't be a sneaky fucker that don't speak up till damage is done

And don't be greedy fucker that snakes his guys when funds come along

Now you got new guys coming along

I dunno what future holds, but I know I won't quit, been stumbling 'round

Stick to plan, if shit don't stick when it lands, I'm doubling down

When shit hit the fan, you're standing for nothing, got your head spinning around

I can't look down on a man, 'cah I know what I did for a hundred pound