Mother Please Forgive Me

if I had a time machine I’d turn the ship around

and fly back to the nineties

when you weren’t sick and I was a kid nowhere to be found

mother please forgive me

then I would’ve recognized the pain you hid so well

while both of us were hiding

the further that I got from you the less pain of yours I felt

mother please forgive me

forgive me what I’ve done and what I’ve failed to do

each time I did the opposite of what you asked me to

forgive me for leaving when you needed me the most

now I’d trade in this freedom if I could come back home to you

sometimes when I talk to you and know for sure you hear

I offer this confession

I ran away but wish I stayed to face what we both feared

when will I be forgiven

forgive me of my sins accept me with these scars

whoever I am now wherever you are

the belated love of a prodigal son isn’t worth its weight in song

but it’s all I have to offer you now that you are gone

if I had a time machine I’d turn the ship around