Therapy Session VIII: Found it

Got my soul thrown in jail

I was thinking that I'm free

Why they call my phone a cell?

Doing time with the screen

Still I need let em know that today I dropped a song

And If I don't share it then how could they ever come along

This my overthinker anthem

Sober living banger

I'm the brokest living rapper

Saying none of that shit matter

So I stumbled I got back up

What I'm gone do?

Now just pack up

All my hopes and my dreams

Now I know what they mean

When they say these days everything's cliche

And the facts mean nothing but won't go there nah fuck it

Getting cynical it just won't cut it no more

My self - love growing strong hate for others all gone

At least that's what I'm aiming for

Least I know I can't afford the bitterness or hate no more

I woke up in the middle of the night to the strangest thought

Asking me "did you really lose it all or gain it all?"

If that was God? go ahead, tell him: "say no more"

I'mma celebrate it all and write at least 8 more songs

And that's hundred if they wondering

Way too many songs bout pain and loss I heard someone mumbling

But I'm not hearing it cuz I'm busy laying these bricks in my pyramid

And these other bricks that I'm carrying

Never mind that on the day job with a smile that

Says I ain't even trying to get my old life back

Why? I wasn't happy

I had some money but no piece of mind

Thought I need to grind more, maybe I'll find

Some ways and means to climb this ladder

Reach the sky and that will fill this emptiness in my chest

This thing that I've felt since a kid but God damn it won't

But now stacking these songs like 2 or 3 a week and happiness grows

Broke but happy I suppose that's how it goes

Ain't had a panic attack in a whole year

I used to tell myself I don't care what they think of my songs clearly

Just lying to myself

So tired of myself

Kept trying to find help

From something or somebody outside of myself

Need a new girl to feel alive that wild sex

The time that I spent

Trying to just somehow disguise how I felt

But everything I ever needed I found in myself